For starters, thanks for even being here. No seriously, thanks. Because for fuck's sake, this collection of rogue thoughts and randomness is no preconceived work of artistic genius. But, you're here anyway and that's super dope.
I'm a single, 30-something year old woman, trying to live my best black-ass life in Geneva, Switzerland and I'm getting a little bit closer to my best life, everyday.
I lead a life of contradictions: I scoff at societal rules and authority, yet, I'm only now realizing that I've always been afraid to go against the grain; I believe that nothing is owed to anyone, yet continue to battle my own imagined entitlements; I yearn to find my happiness, but am petrified of the process; I'm outspoken, but struggle to define and honor my own boundaries; I love to be with people, but feel lonely or find myself drifting off into my thoughts where I often end up even more lost than Hansel & Gretel.
This is me doing sacred work on myself. This is my Emancipation Proclamation. In the year of our Lord 2020, I'm a woman meeting herself for the first time. This is a glow-up of epic proportions. Maybe not, but I like to imagine it as such, because my ego is something I'm still learning to release.
But this requires facing the demons that follow me. There was a life before this one; one which was filled with heartache, uncertainty and tremendous sadness. That life was the glorious failure; the beautiful mess that started this journey. That life still reminds me of its existence and so I'm trying to move forward by going back- starting at the beginning and getting to the root of who I am, digging deeper everyday and firmly establishing a new connection with myself while I also try to find my place in this great, big-ass world.
In these last 4 years, I've learned a lot about life, about humans and most importantly about myself. The A Train is a journey; my journey. There have been stops at stations and changes in direction, but now I'm conducting the train and going where I choose to go.
NOW DEPARTING: THE A TRAIN - ALL ABOARD!